I cringe when I see people and they tell me, “Hey, I read your blog!”
I cover my eyes every time I log on and see how many “unlikes” I’ve gotten on Facebook, how many readers were so annoyed by me that they decided not to just “hide” me, but to banish me forever.
I worry each and every time I post if I’m being too self-promoting, if people wish I would just stop writing and get a life already.
The thing is, I know blogging is weird. It’s weird for someone, especially someone like me, who is frumpy and overweight and really not that talkative in real life, to pour my guts out online and talk about things that I don’t even talk about to my own husband.
And yet, here I am.
Why?
I started this blog simply to write. To try and inspire that secret longing I’ve had my whole life, since the days I would hole up in my room on beautiful sunny afternoons and write little stories. To prove to myself that with the mere act of committing myself to producing words on a screen regularly I could be transformed into a writer. And in a way, I’ve accomplished a small step towards my goal. I’ve published my first articles and will have the opportunity to call myself an author. The closeted writer in my me loves this little space to call my own and spin words into my art.
But it’s more than that.
I blog to make sense of this, my little world full of things that seem so small and insignificant, and reconciling it with the rest, the big and the scary and sometimes, the painful.
I blog because I love the words of others; the words I will stumble across at just the moment when I feel like I am falling. The words that will make me whisper a quiet “yes,” alone in the dark because someone has captured, just perfectly, what I needed to hear.
I blog because I hope I can in some way, or some small form, be that “yes” to a mom out there…just when she needs it most.
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*Quiet Whisper* Yes!
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Yes, yes, yes! I have always been a writer, but blogging has helped me own that and it’s a creative outlet that I so need in the midst of mothering little ones. I have to ask though, because it’s happened to me – have you ever had anyone tell you that blogging is “selfish”? How do you respond to that?
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Yes! I’m working on a post about that matter in fact!!
I have thought about this – and I have yet to come up with a response to “Hey, I read your blog!” Because they aren’t complimenting me, they’re just saying that they’ve read it. And you can’t ask – well, did you like it? I just sort of smile weakly and fumble for a response.
But for me, I just like to communicate. There’s something about writing, about sharing my journey that I find incredibly rewarding. It’s not JUST the writing, I really like having people read it as well.
That being said – if someone could come up with a good response, please let me know!
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You’re right! It’s so awkward…I usually just smile and nod. “Oh, do you?” and then change the subject as fast as I can. Maybe we should each write a post about possible responses?? Are you in?